I have just found your
website, and would like to share my cat's healing experience with you.
We had to take - Loki, our 8-year old
neutered male brown tabby to the vet's last week. He was not eating or
drinking much at all, hardly moving from the chair he chose to remain
curled up on, meowing painfully and looking most unhappy. He is slightly
overweight, but we noticed that in the previous week he seemed to grow
larger, almost like he was pregnant.
The vet did a physical exam and found
not surprisingly that he was
dehydrated, and when he felt his abdomen he was unable to feel the
individual organs and found what appeared later on x-ray as a "large fatty
mass" which was pushing his internal organs down and to the side of his
little body. It was something our vet had never encountered before. They
kept Loki all day Thursday trying to re-hydrate him and get him to eat a
When we brought him home Thursday night,
I decided to see if I could help him with my Reiki training. I only have
my first level, and haven't used it consistently, but I felt moved to do
this for Loki. My initial contact with him was holding my hands about an
inch over either side of his abdomen. I immediately felt a large, hot
energy area coming from him, particularly on the right side - I could feel
it push back at me, if that makes any sense. I let my hands remain still
for a few minutes as I felt that familiar Reiki energy flowing in and
through Loki. I told him he was going to heal and that this energy would
be used by his body to heal this "mass". I did about four small sessions
on him that evening.
There wasn't a huge difference in him by
Friday morning - and the vet had asked that if he wasn't at least 75%
better - to bring him back in for the day. However, when the vet rechecked
his abdomen, he was able to feel his organs a little easier...they kept
him in again to make sure he was drinking and eating a bit more. Friday
evening saw him a lot better. I continued his sessions when we got home,
about half a dozen short ones throughout the course of the evening. He
enjoyed the treatments, reaching back to lick my hand on a couple of
It seemed after each session, he
responded in a positive way. Today, just a week after we were pretty sure
we were losing him, he's back to his old self - eating, drinking, moving
freely - no painful meowing, running up and downstairs, and playing with
our other cat "Q". The vet was surprised to hear of such a dramatic
reversal of his condition when I talked to him last Saturday morning ,
only two days after we brought him in, figuring we were going to lose him!
What I did notice was as Loki got
better, that large energy surge from his side disappeared, and I felt a
more normal energy/aura outline of his body...does that make sense to you?
I hope I haven't rambled on too long in this email - but this was exciting
- and even though we're total strangers - I know you'll understand how
much be a part of this success means to me! My family have said that I
"healed" him - but I know that I was only the one to channel or share the
Reiki energy - this healing energy with Loki - it didn't come from me, but
through me... Thanks for an opportunity to share!
Unfortunately, the time comes when our
animal companions move on from this world to the next. Such is the case of
Loki. I recently heard from one of Loki's humans, Pat, as she shared the
news of his passing. I have put together a compilation of the notes Pat
sent me about Loki and what he meant to his family and I thought it
important to share it here. We have all had to face the loss of a beloved
pet and I hope that you may find some comfort in sharing the story of Loki
and his family.
There are times, when what is the
highest healing good is for someone to cross over. It always leaves an
empty space in the lives and hearts of those of us left behind. But what
is also left behind are the memories, the love, and the joy an animal
brought into our lives while they were here with us. Loki filled the lives
of his family with love and laughter and, even after his passing, he gave
them one final gift. I have done very little editing to what Pat shared
with me about Loki; it seemed only right that it be her words that you
01/16/2002 From Pat
I was just rereading the story I sent to
you about "Loki" our beautiful tabby and this morning I have sad news of
his passing. He was beyond Reiki or even any conventional medicine this
morning, from an apparent stroke in the early hours of the day. My husband
and I were with him at the emergency vet clinic at four a.m. Calgary time.
He was unresponsive; his sight had been taken from him... he was basically
near comatose. We both shed our tears and decided the most loving thing we
could do would be to let him leave us in peace and end his suffering. Ours
has just begun - this was so unexpected.
He was fine last night and no one could
have known it was his last night in our family. If I can share anything
with you about this it would be to encourage those of us who love our
animals to take that extra minute to throw their ball, scratch their
tummies for them, pick them up and hug them. Because no one knows what
morning we will wake up and find it is the last one together. We know we
made the right decision for Loki, but our hearts are very heavy right now.
I know in time the pain will fade, but life will never be quite the same
in our household.
Thanks so much for your kind words and
understanding. This loss was so incredibly shocking for all of us. Last
night, not even twenty-four hours ago, he was with us and playing with my
brother's dog, wrestling with the carpet in the hall - something important
that he just had to jump on! So full of life - sitting at the window
watching the birds at the feeder outside, alert and well. I had held him
and he purred and licked my ear, the way he always did and then we wake up
to a day without Loki in our lives in the same way ever again.
He came to us as an orphan kitten,
barely five weeks old... none of us can remember life before Loki, and
none of us will ever forget him. Our other pets (Shadow my poodle, who is
going on 11, and our other cat "Q", who is 6) are a great comfort at this
time, but like losing a best friend, no one else can ever take his place
in our hearts.
When we celebrated the new year, who
could have known before it's first month was out we'd be feeling these
painful emotions once again even before the loss of our 13 year old Collie
had faded. Holly went to the Rainbow Bridge in July, 2001... at least now
the two of them can be together until we are all reunited!
You said if there was anything you could
do, don't hesitate to ask. I guess the only thing I would ask you, is to
do what you're doing as you read this just knowing someone else out there
understands how this feels perhaps including the guilt and horrible
second-guessing I'm feeling right now.
Our healing is certainly a slow process,
isn't it? I sat with my daughter Maeghan last night while she cried about
Loki. She's 17 and Loki has been part of her life for half of her life...
she feels so bad because she never got to say good-bye... I was with him
and I still feel that way. Part of me wishes our own vet could have seen
him first... but the emergency vet was a very caring person, and told
Gerry (my husband) and I that if Loki were her cat, that would be her
decision for him - the most loving and humane one to make.
The hardest part was that the poor
love's veins had started to collapse on him. I suppose that in itself is
not a good indicator, is it - and we finally had to put him to sleep with
the gas and then complete his injection... it really was awful... my
stomach still gets in knots when I think about it. I know the answer is
"Don't think about it", but it's like a bad movie that keeps replaying...
A good thing I wanted to share with you
- and maybe you'll concur with my thoughts. Maeg told me she had a dream
about Loki on Wednesday night... she went into our living room and saw him
curled up on the afghan on my grandma's chair - and when she knelt down to
see him - he kissed her on the cheek. Right away I said that that wasn't a
dream - and she should consider that Loki actually came to her in to let
her know - and I guess, let all of us know - that he was alright, that he
loves us and that he's still with us. What do you think? I have a picture
of Loki taken when we lived in Richmond Hill, Ontario. He always loved to
look at the world up-side down - rolling on his back and stretching -
waiting for us to notice how beautiful he was... he had the most
beautiful, soft amber colored fur on his tummy...
Yes, it would be good of you to share
his passing with friends who visit your website. God gave us an incredible
gift when we picked up this scrawny little guy from the vet clinic in
Scarborough, Ontario! We had nine wonderful years with Loki... we don't
know his exact birth date - the vet figured it was in the first two weeks
of July, 1993... he came to us on August 26, 1993 - a birthday gift for my
oldest son Connor - now 19! One of my favorite songs is Diamond Rio's "One
More Day" since Wednesday, January 16, 2002 it has a very different
meaning for all of us.
Our whole family my husband Gerry, son
Connor, Maeghan and my youngest (16 yrs old), Michael and me have each
shared a very special relationship with Loki. He had the most wonderful
habit of snuggling into your neck when you picked him up, then he would
nearly always turn his head and lick your earlobe, or your cheek or chin.
Quite often with Connor and Gerry, because they were taller, he would
climb up and sit on their shoulders, or drape himself around their neck.
The day I brought Loki home, which was
for Connor's birthday, Gerry was out of town on a business trip. When he
came through the door, I put this little guy in his hands and said, "Look
what I found! Can we keep him?"... with that, Loki promptly climbed up his
arm and perched on Gerry's shoulder. This little wee fellow completely
melted Gerry in an instant! He used to jump up into the VCR cabinet when
he was still tiny, or jump into the middle of the vacuum hose when it was
coiled up and watch the dogs play. When he wanted to be tough as a small
kitten he'd puff himself up and jump sideways across the floor in front of
the dogs, that tiny tail sticking up like a miniature bottlebrush!!
He loved to bat at our collie, Holly's
tail whenever she would walk past him- the two of them were very close.
You could ask Holly "Where's Loki?", and she would walk over and lick his
face, or just look over at her buddy and then back at you, as if to say
"He's right here - what's your problem!" Loki established a lifelong
wrestling routine with my poodle Shadow - often sitting up on his hind
legs and smacking Shadow on the muzzle... then they would literally tumble
and roll around the floor together! Or else he'd hide and then ambush
Shadow as he walked past his secret hiding places!
I could go on forever... I just needed
to share those memories with you... it's easy to look at an animal's
picture and appreciate the beauty and such, but I wanted to give you a
sense of who Loki was to our family. The weekend was a bit better for us.
Actually a very interesting moment happened while we were watching TV in
bed last night - bad habit - go to bed early then stay up late anyway!
Shadow was already curled up by my feet and I knew that Q was on his
blanket on the floor in the closet. I felt him jump up and walk up between
Gerry and I, which he does quite often... however, when I turned to see
him and say hi - no one was there... but I distinctly felt the movement
onto the bed, and the footsteps walking carefully towards us. Obviously,
Loki is very nearby... and it is reassuring to me. Thank you for doing
this for me, for our family. I hope reading our story will help others who
are going through this same painful process. Life does go on and that's
what they would want us to do. Perhaps as you said, Loki will send another
orphan our way to love when we are ready.
by Pat Slade, Calgary, Alberta, Canada